Getting Back Up
Well, I’ve been avoiding writing this post for a couple weeks now. And I’m just now realizing that the reason for that is, well, two reasons.
First, I told myself when I first started this blog that I didn’t want to be that person that started strong and then fizzled out. That this was something I really felt from the Lord to do and I wanted to be consistent and stick with it. My goal was to do a post every two weeks, and I was sticking with that! Well, my last post was May 9th and today is July 1st…. need I say more?
I was so disappointed in myself that I just kept pushing this off and almost pretending it wasn’t there. If only it was that easy. Not only did I consistently feel a pull from the Lord, but He has also blessed me with incredible friends/family who kept telling me they couldn’t wait to read my next post - their nice way of calling me out haha! And I appreciate it more than they know.
You see, when God calls us to do something, that doesn’t mean it’s going to be perfect, or all go according to plan. Honestly, it’s never going to be perfect, and you can have all the plans in the world, but I’m pretty sure God will shake those up too! Because truthfully, I need to be reminded every now and again that it’s not about me. I can have goals and plans and all that is great! But this desire to even write a blog was from Him and I can’t do it without Him. You hear this all the time these days, it’s not how many times you mess up or, in my case, feel defeated and disappointed. It’s about getting back up, brushing it off, remembering who my God is, and moving forward in what He has called me to do knowing that if He has called me to do it - it WILL succeed! No matter what it looks like!
The second reason I have been avoiding writing this post is - well, a lot has happened since my last post. Things that have felt mentally, emotionally, and even spiritually draining. Honestly, exhausting. And I think part of me just didn’t want to revisit all of that again - even though it was all great things! The Lord has really put His finger on a lot of different things in my life that needed attention and healing and I didn’t even know it. To me, these things weren’t blatantly broken, so I didn’t even know they needed healing or attention.
But here is the thing, something doesn’t need to be broken before we give it attention or allow the Lord to heal it. I’m reminded of a time last summer when my sweet Zoe fell off my parents’ trampoline and ended up needing to have her elbow casted. But, not for the reason you are probably thinking. After her being in some pain and a few visits later, we were told that she didn’t actually break or dislocate her elbow. However, she did have some inflammation and swelling and due to her age, the best way to give it some time to heal was to cast it as if it was broken. I mean, who is going to tell a 4 year old to not move her elbow for 6 weeks? Outside of it being casted, no one haha!
The Lord used that memory to show me that this season might seem tiring and like its one thing after another, but Him putting His finger on different things in my life is His way of saying, “Hey Diana, lets cast this.” Not because it’s broken, but because it requires some extra attention. It requires some healing. It requires my love and truth to be spoken over it. It requires rest and some time to heal so that when we are done it can be stronger than when we started. It requires intentionality.
We don’t always have to hit rock bottom or wait for something to break to give it the attention it needs. When the Lord puts His finger on something, even multiple things, be intentional to slow down and allow Him to work. God wants to restore areas of your life that are hurting - and that doesn’t always mean we are aware of those areas. If you are intentional to ask the Lord to show you, He is faithful to respond.
Getting back up with you,
